Bad mood

i seldom bring up "freedom" now, because i only play them when i am fed up and i want to try to feel less fed up all the time but man i am really fed up, when i am the only person who takes care of the things that is important. i wish i am wrong but the fact is everytime it turns out that i am correct and i saved the day for everyone. i am not smart, i just work everyday, knows about my things and i plan my moves. the utter loneliness... is that no one will stand by me but expect me to save them. everyone just dump their friggin selfishness on me, but who will care about the pain i have to endure for all of you? why dont you all just go fuck yourself?